So the boys have been having fun playing with the new neighbor’s boys. It’s been great! I’ve been so excited and relieved to have found a pretty good match for them, especially since Cosmo has had difficulty maintaining friends in the neighborhood. Seems the kids (and their parents) don’t want to get to know him now that he’s on meds.
At any rate, they were playing yesterday, and were fighting (like all kids do), and one of them told Cosmo “my dad doesn’t like you.”
Since school started, they haven’t been able to play as much, and I was suddenly worried that we were going to have the same result with these neighbors. Seems that’s where my mind defaults anymore.
A phone call cleared it all up, however. Holy relief! See what happens when you don’t worry, and you wait to talk about it? Lesson learned.
School is busy
So I’m pretty much struggling to find oxygen this semester. Between being PRESENT with the boys when we’re all home, household duties, and homework… I don’t have much time to have my own thoughts in my head. Thankfully, I do have downtime after class to “de-brain.” I’ll watch an hour or so of TV before hitting the hay. I’m pretty much done after class gets out.
This semester I have 5 classes; next semester I’ll have 3, and no LAW class. Hopefully that will make life so much easier! I do like law, don’t get me wrong… there’s a lot of reading and writing involved, though.
I did have an interesting conversation with a couple classmates, though. When people ask what I “do,” I tell them “I”m a student.” Then, I feel frustrated when they assume I’m going to a community college. (Silly pride, I know). I feel guilty, somehow, telling people that I’m a grad student, as I don’t want to be self-aggrandizing… but then I have the lame-o pride thing (because people in school should just be proud of themselves regardless!).
They told me I should tell people “I’m working on my master’s.” I suppose this is true. There’s no reason for me not to be proud of it, and then I won’t have the silly pride problem.
The real question is “Why would I rather have people think less of me than more of me?” I always minimize my skills, knowledge, and talent, for fear of coming off as a braggart. And because, somewhere in my head, I figure I’m SO good that it should just be obvious. I guess this is something for me to ponder while I’m re-engineering myself.
Fall is here!
The Woodsman turned 40 on the first day of fall. He spent his birthday holding down the fort while I was at school studying and in class. He’s so good! We’ll celebrate tomorrow, when we can all be together for dinner (and dessert)!
So we’re now in the time of year where there is less daylight than there is dark. It’s silly to be bummed, I know… but that’s the ONE part of fall that I don’t love. If I could set the timer on the sun, I’d turn it on at 6am, and turn it off at 7:30pm. “Up” where we are on this globe, we will have sunsets at about 4:00 pm, dark at 4:30. Swing’s birthday is the shortest day of the year; the winter solstice. Two members of this family are equinox/solstice people!
Anyway, nothing terribly exciting here, except for what’s in my head! I’ll leave you with this awesome photo of the boys… they made these super duper toilet paper pumpkins today! I got the idea from my friend, Carla http://hoagy74.blogspot.com/2010/09/toilet-paper-pumpkins.html